Insomnia:
"This is how it is with insomnia. Everything is so far away, a copy of a copy of a copy. " The interesting thing about insomnia is that every action is so removed. A person is so distanced from the original occurrence of something, that it's not really processed. Without sleep, it's almost like you're not really experiencing your life head on. You're just seeing copies of experiences without actually engaging in activities. "All night you're thinking, Am i asleep, have i slept?" A person is so delusional that there is no distinction between reality and dreams. You just feel half alive. You retrace thoughts over and over again to attempt to discover what you have really experienced.
" On a long enough time line, the survival rate for everyone will eventually drop to zero."
This statement can go back and forth between ideas. It either adds meaning to life, because it's "structured by death." Or it can deplete the value, causing others to think, well I'm going to die eventually, what is there to enjoy? This can make people think that live is just an empty experience only to be controlled by death.
Ali,
ReplyDeleteThe sleep stuff is interesting. I'm curious to see what your take on this insomnia is once you've finished the novel.